Self Injurers Caring

Well, I thought I'd work at keeping up with things, especially since I have so many things going on all at once. I am a self injurer - have been for a very long time. It's all a part of who I am really, it doesn't define me as a whole, but it does do well at helping to round out the edges so to speak. Over the years, I've talked with many people who are self injurers, I've talked to many people who are incredibly depressed, and others who've thought of taking their life. In all those instances its done so much for me, but most of all it helps to keep my eyes set straight ahead, not to the clouds, not to the grounds - but to those who I meet. 

Years ago, I had started a blog once - I had even the idea of a name of a group for all of it - S.I.C.
Which stands for "Self Injurers Caring" sometimes many who do self injure think that they can only rely on themselves that no one else has been where they are. It's not true though, that was the hardest lesson for me to learn - that I am not the only one who self injures. To those that may read my words - you're not the first, and you're not the last one who will end up using such a life threatening coping mechanism - I really hate to disappoint. There is no one that is worse then you, and there is no one better than you - we are all the same, each of us honestly need to come together to help one another out. There are things I can always learn from someone else, just like I know I have a lot to offer someone else if they truly wish to listen. 

It's in listening that I came to find that I have this little voice in the back of my head that just won't let me give up any longer, I'm much too strong for that, and I'm even more stubborn than that. I've tried so many times in the past - always it never worked, is that a blessing or a curse? I truly don't know on that one quite yet, but in time who knows I may figure it all out. I'm in the process of a lot of side projects, working on some t shirt designs which I hope to upload to CafePress, I have some sounds that I'm working on as well, and constantly mulling over the idea of dictating a book of mine. Then, eventually I'll have posted up another side project that I'm working on that could really use the support of everyone really. I'm soon to be raising funds so that I can continue on developing my own sound, but more importantly - to develop a unique sound that is truly original. I'm trying to figure out what to offer as incentives - I'm thinking for sure free download codes for my music, but I don't know I just don't think that it's enough. I do, however wish that I could offer more, but at the moment - it's a bit difficult to offer more incentives. 

I do however want to let everyone know, that I'd so much appreciate anyone, and everyone's help - my goal is to create a mailing list of seven thousand [7000+] people for a contact list. The more the better really, I have a lot of dreams that are still in their fruition so I really hope that people keep coming back to look at how the blog is developing, at how the projects are developing but most of all - how I am developing not just as a person, but as a musician, as an artist.