Well, it has been some time since last I wrote, and I think honestly that it is time I come back to this to dedicate time to write at least three times a week. I am confident that I can easily commit to that. I guess I should give an update. In July I'm going to be going to school to study Video Game Design & Development. I'm excited about it too. If you haven't been able to tell I am an Audio freak, it stems from being a DJ for so long. I'm actually getting some interesting ideas the more I research the Video Game Industry, and I see that there are some elements that I'm going to learn in developing a Video Game that I can see transferring back into the realm of DJing. I'm also, working with my long time mate to develop a brand based on the idea of DJing, and that is honestly exciting me more and more. Yet, I am learning that I have more inner strength, and inner power then what I truly realise. It became more apparent yesterday when I was in a group setting, and the group was sharing their own personal feelings. I spoke up, and spoke out to which I saw smiles, I saw relief, and I saw that they found inspiration from what I had to say. So much so, that one of them suggested I take up inspirational public speaking, and it made me really wonder why I was there in the room. But more so, it made everyone else wonder what I was doing there. I can see that the more I create a mental pathway that I'd like to follow towards success, the more I see my direction becoming therapeutic for me. I have a lot of plans, and while I'm working things out in my head I can see that my confidence is growing by leaps, and bounds. I keep thinking that I'm so much like a phoenix that it tends to cause me harm since I somehow run myself down into the ground, I turn to ashes, and yet eventually you can bet that I'm going to come back with more strength, and vigour then before.

From the ashes of my self destruction; I find confidence, determination, direction, motivation, and strength. Yet, from my self destruction I find what's even more important - I find who I am.